Dunn Dunn Dunn Dunn Done Totally Fed Up shssss

TOTAL SURRENDER TO LET GOD DO WHAT HE WANTS TO DO IS A EMPTY FEELING OF WELL ACTUALLY LETS CALL IT WHAT THE WORD ALREADY TELLS US WHAT TO DO..."AFTER YOU HAVE DONE ALL YOU CAN DO JUST STAND" THIS PHRASE HAS BEEN SONG FAMOUSLY BY DONNIE McKIRKLAND. (for those who have not heard the song I am posting it in this blog) Donnie McKirland Stand OMG OMG HOW MY FAMILY HAS BEEN TRIED,TWISTED, AND SHIFTED......PHYSICALLY,MENTALLY,SOCIALLY.........BUT THROUGH IT ALL I HAVE LEARNED TO TRULY I MEAN TRULY SURRENDED MY SITUATIONS INTO THE LORDS HANDS.........SHALL I GO DEEPER ????
MY HUSBAND MYSELF AND MY YOUNGEST SON WERE OFFERED POSITIONS IN A NEW MINISTRY......WE HAD TO PRAY ABOUT IT THEN WE WENT TO THE FIRST MEETING FOR LEADERS ALL WAS WELL UNTILL I HEARD A DISCREPANCY IN FOUNDATIONAL TRUTH NOT GOING TO GO INTO THE MATTER LET ME JUST STATE......IT WAS A FOUNDATIONAL TRUTH THAT THE HOLY SPIRIT REVEALED TO ME IN 1986 MY ENTIRE MINISTRY SURROUNDED THIS FOUNDATIONAL TRUTH, MANY PEOPLE WHO I HAD LED TO THE LORD RECIEVED THE UNDERSTANDING IN THEIR HEARTS AND MINDS AND GAVE THEIR LIVES TO THE LORD...........EVEN PASTORS AND MINISTRIES GOD LED US TO EVANGELIZE IN GREAT MEETING EXCEPTED CHRISTIAN FAITH ON THIS FOUNDATIONAL TRUTH........WE WERE EVEN OFFORD TO BECOME APART OF THE MINISTRY ALTHOUGH, OUR FOUNDATIONAL TRUTH WAS NOT IN AGREEANCE WITH THEIR FOUNDATIONAL TRUTH.......BUT GOD SAID NO COMPROMISE, NO COMPROMISE.................SO WE TURNED DOWN THE OFFER........THAT SAME WEEK MY HUSBAND WAS DIANOSED WITH VHD AND LUMBAR STENOSIS W/RADICULOPATHY DISEASE.........THEN WE BECAME FINANCIALLY STRAPPED ..........THEN MY DAUGHTER MOVED 3,000 MILES AWAY (my bff, my counselor,my first born, no offense to the rest of my posse.....smiling) ALL OF THIS IN A MATTER OF 2 MONTHS......I FOUND MYSELF FOR 2 DAYS FALLING APART I CRIED OUT TO THE LORD..........LORD WHAT IS HAPPENING WHAT HAVE WE DONE WRONG.......(come on now let's tell the truth and shame the devil you know that there have been times you felt this way especially if you know that you know you have been doing all you can do) AFTER VISITING MY HUSBAND IN THE HOSPITAL GOING BACK AND FORTH WATCHING A MAN WHO HAS NEVER BEEN SICK (only from a flu shot never had surgery before you know or anything like that) TO SEE YOUR MAN WHO HAS WORKED FOR OVER 45 YEARS LAYING ON HIS BACK IT WAS SO HARD TO ENDURE SLEEPING WITH SOMEONE FOR 30 YRS AND NOW THE BED IS EMPTY WITH HIS PRESENCE..........IT GAVE ME TIME TO REFLEX DEEPER AND THEN THE NIGHT BEFORE HE CAME HOME I SAID," DUNNN DUNNN DUNN DUNN " LIKE IN A SONG I SAID I AM DONE LORD I DONOT KNOW HOW YOU ARE GOING TO FIX THIS HOWEVER, I AM DONE I HAVE DONE ALL YOU ASKED ME TO DO AND NOW IT IS ALL IN YOUR HANDS......I DON'T KNOW HOW YOU ARE GOING TO FIX IT BUT I KNOW IT'S ALL UP TO YOU.....NOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO IS SIT BACK AND WATCH ON HOW YOU ARE GOING TO CREATE A MIRACLE.........BECAUSE I AM THROUGH.......CAN I TELL YOU IN THAT MOMENT THIS IS HOW I FELT (EMPTY, USELESS,DIDNOT WANT TO STRATIZE, DIDNOT WANT TO MAKE ANY CALLS TO ANYONE DIDNOT WANT TO EXPLAIN EACH SITUATION HOW WHAT WHEN MY FEELINGS OF PRESSURE WAS GONE.............AND PEACE FLOODED MY BRAIN YES I SAID MY BRAIN.........NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENES FROM THAT POINT UNTILL NOW I SAY AND NOT JUST IN LIPSERVICE I SAY "OH WELL , LET THE LORD HANDLED IT"  BECAUSE TELL ME THIS WILL CRYING, SNOTTING, HOLLARING, GETTING OUT OF WHACK, CATCHING ATTITUDES CHANGE THE SITUATION ?????????? NO TO THE 3 POWER AND THAT IS INFINITY.........HECK NO NOT A DARN THING CHANGES..........WHAT IT DOES IS SHOOT YOUR NERVES, RUN UP YOUR BLOOD PRESSURE, MAKE YOU WEAK AND TRIED........NOW DON'T GET IT TWISTED YOU MAY HAVE SHOCKS AND MISHAPS AND OH YEAH !!!!!!!!! YOU MAY CRY, SCREAM, GO OFF THE CHAIN GET UPSET........HOWEVER AT THE END OF THE DAY WHAT HAVE YOU ACCOMPLISHED.........BROTHERS AND SISTER'S AND EVEN THOSE WHO HAVE NOT EXCEPTED THE CHRISTIAN FAITH............STRESSING OUT IS NOT GOING TO CHANGE ANYTHING..........(taking a deep breathe) BEEN THERE LOST A LOT OF SLEEPLESS NIGHTS, CRIED A MANY OF NIGHTS EVEN AT ONE POINT BACK IN THE DAY I HAVE HAD NERVOUS BREAKDOWN, I AM TELLING YOU TOTAL SURRENDER TO ALLOW JESUS TO TAKE IT AND CREATE HIS MIRACLES IN YOUR LIFE STANDS TO BE TRUE........SOME PEOPLE GET RIGHT AWAY SOME PEOPLE HAVE TO GO THRU THE PROCESS NONE THE LESS A PROCESS IS COMING HAS COME IN SOME OF PEOPLE'S LIVES ALL I KNOW IS THAT MY PROCESS IS COMPLETE IN DUNNN DUNNN DUNNN DONE MY PROBLEMS ARE ALL IN HIS HANDS AND I AM NEVER GOING TO PICK THEN UP AGAIN..............ROM 10:13 STATES IF YOU BELEIVE IN YOUR HEART (YOUR MIND) AND CONFESS WITH YOUR MOUTH (REPEATING THIS VERSE) THY SHALL BE SAVED......... YOU JUST EXCEPTED JESUS CHRIST INTO YOUR LIFE....YOU ARE NOW ON A ROAD OF PROCESS......... NOT TO WORRY YOU WILL NEVER BE ALONE GOD IS NOW WITH YOU AND HE HAS ALLOWED ME TO HELP YOU IN THE JOURNEY